Aldwine Larme 7/28/08: "Maybe that wasn't such a good idea," I told the boy in the mirror. "Now, I can't get him out of my head, and it's killing me!"
He shook his head in either pity or disgust. "This isn't the first time you've done this," he said. "You always go for the impossible ones."
I turned my head away in annoyance. "I don't plan it intentionally, you know," I said, a tad pouting. "I can't help it if I grow attached."
"Grow attached? Ha!" He laughs in my general direction. "Dude, you fall like a ton on bricks the moment they SEEM to be interested in you."
"Even when you know that's not the case, you read it that way." He looks at me with sad eyes, serious now. "Face it. It'll never happen."
I faced him and sighed. "Don't wish, don't start. Wishing only wounds the heart." He nods at me & I nod back. "Maybe it's better this way."
7/29/08: "Are you listening to that song again?!" He was looking at me like I had gone crazy. All I could do was shrug my shoulders and nod.
"What? It's a good song. 'If you just realize what I just realized then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another."
"Stop that right now," he demanded. "You're not making this easy on yourself. Let him go, he'll never realize that. It can't work that way."
I sighed at him. "I know, alright? A part of me is just hoping it might be possible." He looked at me with sad, wise eyes... and scoffed.
